I chatted with the fam on the webcam. It's good to see them and chat with them but it honestly makes me depressed after. It makes me homesick and sick about all the things I'm missing out on.
Kara (Jarom's sister) just got married and we missed her wedding. Lara (my sister) has her senior prom tonight...can't believe she's graduating in a few weeks.
Jimmy cried when we got off the webcam because he missed everyone and wanted to see them now. That just breaks my heart more than anything. All that my sweet kids are missing out on. All the little things like birthday parties, family dinners...
Sure we are having wonderful experiences here, but missing experiences there. What did we start? Because you know as soon as we move back I will yearn for the people and experiences we've had here. I already think about it and I don't even know when we'll leave.
It's just all so bitter-sweet.
It's like I now have two homes that I love. Two countries filled with people I love. And I obviously can't have them both at the same time. It makes me feel so torn.