Saturday, May 01, 2010


I chatted with the fam on the webcam. It's good to see them and chat with them but it honestly makes me depressed after. It makes me homesick and sick about all the things I'm missing out on.

Kara (Jarom's sister) just got married and we missed her wedding. Lara (my sister) has her senior prom tonight...can't believe she's graduating in a few weeks.

Jimmy cried when we got off the webcam because he missed everyone and wanted to see them now. That just breaks my heart more than anything. All that my sweet kids are missing out on. All the little things like birthday parties, family dinners...

Sure we are having wonderful experiences here, but missing experiences there. What did we start? Because you know as soon as we move back I will yearn for the people and experiences we've had here. I already think about it and I don't even know when we'll leave.

It's just all so bitter-sweet.

It's like I now have two homes that I love. Two countries filled with people I love. And I obviously can't have them both at the same time. It makes me feel so torn.


AshlieM said...

That's hard! My family is all in different states, but I couldn't imagine being in different countries! You should just try to enjoy the time while you are there, it would be so neat to live somewhere like that.

the speers said...

Oh, that so super sucks, Er!! your kids are so sweet! I can't believe Lara is graduating! SO weird!!! your families rock...they're all so close! :D I'm sorry you miss them! I love you!

Kim said...

Well, we yearn for you too Erika.
We talk of you ALWAYS when we are together as a family. We smile as Gpa and I give updates to everyone of you and Jarom and the kids.....and we cry and even get a little upset sometimes because we love and miss you terribly.
We thank the Lord that our relationships are sweet and close knit enough to miss. Can you imagine your absence NOT bothering us? Now there would be the tragedy!
We also are VERY proud of you and Jarom for your righteous desires and beautiful family. Dad and I both keep your names in the temple always - that the Lord will bless you with the inspiration and opportunities HE wants you to have, always with a BIG PS that WE WANT YOU BACK HOME ASAP!
We love you Kitamia! Our hearts all ache for more of you in our lives. Your feelings posted today are likewise ours. xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Kristal said...

Well, I feel your pain. What would we do without you guys! My advice...try not to think about the things you are missing out on:)

Katie said...

I know what you mean. WV has been our home as long as we've been married, but I still feel bad missing out on family.